“Perhaps the most mulled over question in life is, What is the point of it all? After a deep conversation with the mushrooms, a few pieces of the puzzle came together in a succinct way. The plants are a radio frequency changer for those brave and willing enough to drop the ego and learn real truths. Often painful, harsh truths since the ego has to admit to misunderstandings. Again, that harshness, that pain - it takes us to the light. We cannot bypass the process…”Read more
When you awaken spiritually, do not expect some clinical, organised and pretty endeavor. There is no instruction manual on your rebirth. It will be an unpredictable, painful, messy rollercoaster. You will feel the entire spectrum of human emotion. Your heart will burst, you will cry, you will laugh like there is no tomorrow. There will be moments when your knees completely hit the floor, and moments when you will feel more alive than ever… More alive than life itself.
Forget the love, light, rainbows and unicorns that are being portrayed...light chasing will get you nowhere. True spiritual awakening is about learning how to dance with the light and the darkness and ride those waves of chaos. The universe is inherently turbulent.
Through choosing to really see your darkness, you are becoming courageous. You are no longer fearful of what they told you about the dark. Now you see that it is a divine gift, just like the light. It is all for us. Choosing to see only light creates distortions and illusions that do not serve your highest good. Your inner light will not be diminished by diving into your darkness, exploring it and exposing it. This way of thinking gives the light no credit at all.
Our own bullshit cannot be avoided, and nor should it be. Exploring those deep corners will expose your unacknowledged fears before they manifest into something much bigger. We must be fearless about discovering those fears. We must throw ourselves into the abyss and trust that the universe will catch us. Even if the arms that it catches us with aren’t what we want or expect.
To awaken, we must face up to everything that we are. This includes the good, the bad and the downright ugly. All of those things you dislike about yourself…can you make peace with them? Can you even face up to and admit them? Are you ready to make a conscious relationship with the darkness inside yourself so that it can become fertile soil for your emergence when you rise like a phoenix?
Whenever I face challenges in life, I turn to the healing power of dance. It is one of the most powerful and freeing spiritual practices that I have under my belt, and is my go-to meditation.
Dance, in my opinion, is underrated. It is the oldest form of prayer and practice in healing rituals. There are many examples of this; One being the native american ghost dance; Those who practiced the dance believed that it would connect them with spirits of the dead and bring prosperity, unity, and peace.
The dancing form of Shiva - Nataraja; meaning “the lord of dance” represents dancing in order to release yourself from the trap of illusion. It also represents the dance with the universe. What really resonates with me, is that the point where the dance takes place in this depiction of Shiva is in the heart centre. Dance is a practice that for me, blows my heart wide open.
Dance takes us on an internal journey
As humans, we spend so much time in our external surroundings. When do we take the time to really dive inside? The dance gives us access to what is really happening within us right now. We all have a yearning to connect with something much bigger than ourselves, to explore those mysterious and unknown places inside and to discover much more about who we really are.
What I’ve witnessed at the retreats I host is that when we hold our dance sessions; guests generally begin shy and a little introverted and are soon really losing themselves in the music. It often ends with some strong energies being realised. I'm lucky enough to have manifested a best friend, Caroline who also loves to dance. She is also my retreat co-host so dance meditation is naturally one of our favourite sessions on retreat.
As well as releasing energy, we also create energy when we dance and we can use that energy to manifest. Once in a trance like state during your dance; feel the energy rising in your body, visualise it, set your intentions and hold them in your mind, picture what it is that you want to manifest, send that energy and intention out into the universe and then let go of any outcome and expectation.
Dancing in the spirit
I often dance alone. Music on loud, eyes closed. Feeling nothing but the music and immense universal love. I dive deeply into myself until I lose sense of the physical and I feel universal connectedness. I don’t only dance when I am happy or in the mood though; I dance when I am sad, angry, frustrated, tired & cannot be bothered. I have to drag myself into the dance sometimes but I always benefit in the end and I always learn something. If I am tired, I dance tired. If I am sad, I dance sad.
Gone (almost) are my days of dancing in nightclubs at 4am. Though that was my first true introduction to universal oneness and love.
Surrendering to the now
Dance takes us into a trance state. It helps us to let go of tension in the body, free the mind and it connects us straight with god/source/creation. There is an ecstasy to be felt in truly surrendering to each moment when we dance. We begin to discover that the medicine we need is within; that we are powerful beings. We can transcend the physical and the restrictions of our consciousness and become one with our spirits. A divine unity.
We can be totally swept away in the dance if we allow ourselves to be. As we head deeper and deeper into the music, the movements, the now. Our vibrations raising. Skin shedding. Reaching the ecstatic places within.
Why not try dancing your way to freedom? Dance for peace. Dance for change. Dance for love.
The biggest lesson I’ve been taught on my 10 year journey with the plants is, “Let go... surrender”. If you cling on tightly to the 3D consensus reality during a journey with any plant then you’re probably going to have a tough time. This is true in our everyday lives too. A zen proverb comes to mind: “Let go or be dragged”.Read more
That night when we danced
With every inhale of breath
The atoms of our bodies expanded up and out into the universe
And with every exhale we came back together againRead more
Some of us spend the majority of our lives engulfed by the darkness. Broken by it. I labelled myself as a broken person. I put myself inside a box. That was entirely my choice. There was comfort in the darkness. It was somehow easier down there than coming into the light. The light was blinding, loving, all encompassing and it terrified me.Read more
Every single person in the world is either searching or has searched for someone or something to fill us up and make us whole. I know that I certainly have. Feeling anything but happy or flat is demonised in our society. We see certain emotions as “bad”. In my opinion, there is no such thing as a “bad” feeling. Only an uncomfortable one. And why are we so afraid of discomfort?Read more